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12 March 2005 @ 08:35 pm
Dropping out  
So, after much gnashing of teeth about getting into the Holy Grail of educational courses, I have finally decided that I'm going to drop out.

"Why?" you ask.

Well, as the first of my deadlines loomed I felt myself sinking ever deeper into melancholy.

At the end of last year, I felt like I was burnt out.
I felt unable to write after the heavy stress of completing my diploma.

I guess it should have been clear to me then that, in three months time, I wouldn't be prepared to tackle another two years of intense study.

On top of this we can apply the compounded stress of rising debt, and no real way of paying for my tuition.

So, I have decided that, for the time being at least, I am going into the workforce.
I am getting a day job, and pointing my creative juices towards writing what I want to write (rather than assignments).

I have a job interview on Tuesday for a full time position working as a shop assistant for a certain flightless bird ISP cum retail chain.
Whether I get this particular job or not, I am already feeling liberated at the idea of the financial freedom I will get from full-time employment.

I'm already starting to think about what I'm going to spend my income on (after I pull myself from the mire of debt, of course):

1500/256 ADSL
A massive frickin' hard drive
A frickin' decent video card
Various console/hand-held gaming devices + games
Membership at the Melbourne City Baths
Lastly, and most geekily, an awesome World Eaters army led by a Bloodthirster of Khorne.

By the way, harkon, this may make the Tuesday 1pm Exalted session unviable for me.
Sorry to screw you around so much.
Kittymoorekittie on March 12th, 2005 10:31 am (UTC)
Oh Jacob, I'm really sorry to hear that. I know how much you were looking forward to doing that course.

I hope you find a suitable, full-time job really soon. =)

I know what you mean about the school thing. I was feeling the same at the end of last year and the fact that I'd been at school for 15 years (in a row) didn't help. Only 2 more to go...

Good luck with everything.
Jacobyak_boy on March 12th, 2005 10:43 am (UTC)
Well, I'm not sorry, I'm really not.

I had a heart-to-heart with Emily, and she said she could tell I wasn't happy.

Once I made my decision it was like a huge weight had been lifted.

There's a good chance I'll go back to study some time in the future, but for now I just need some financial and creative freedom.
Kittymoorekittie on March 12th, 2005 11:03 am (UTC)
Well, just as long as you're happy.

That's what's important. =)
Some guy called Lap?harkon on March 13th, 2005 01:31 am (UTC)
I felt very similar in my CS degree. I am really glad I stopped.
Prisspr1ss on March 12th, 2005 10:42 am (UTC)
SP come retail chain
You just couldn't type the word CUM ????
Jacobyak_boy on March 12th, 2005 10:45 am (UTC)
Re: SP come retail chain
I wasn't sure of the correct spelling in this context, but you inspired me to look it up.

"Cum" just makes me think of bad erotica.
Prisspr1ss on March 12th, 2005 10:48 am (UTC)
Re: SP come retail chain
Yeah, you were about to type it, but it was too icky
Jessjess2903 on March 12th, 2005 11:18 am (UTC)
Wow I'm really suprised to hear that, I thought this course was like ur ultimate course!
Jacobyak_boy on March 12th, 2005 11:21 am (UTC)
Yeah, me too.

And there's a good chance it still is.

But right now it's just not happening.